Day 3

Breakfast: Green Juice
Snack: Trail Mix

Lunch: Kale and Veggie Salad
3 leaves kale, chopped
1/4 cup parsley
1/2 red bell pepper, diced
1/4 cup peas
5 cherry tomatoes, halved
1/2 cucumber, diced
1 tsp. sesame seeds
1 tbsp. olive oil
3 tbsp. apple cider vinegar
1/4 tsp sesame oil
1 tsp grated ginger
1/4 tsp dijon mustard

As I wrote in Day 2's entry, I was thinking of quitting the cleanse last night, or doing a modified version. I also slept really badly last night. I kept waking up, and when my alarm went off at 6:30, I was totally awake. When I got up, I noticed my hips were hurting, as were my shoulders. But, I wasn't hungry. In fact, I felt almost repulsed by food. I made my snack and salad and I'd normally snack while doing that, eating bits of bell pepper or walnuts. This time, I didn't feel any urge to do that. In fact, at one point, I picked up some bell pepper as a test, and I didn't want to put it in my mouth. I still made myself drink the green juice, because I can't afford to lose those calories. (This will be the last day I do the green juice. It's not...awful, but it's just not great. The celery gives it a really weird smell and the whole thing tastes vaguely and inexplicably of bananas.) I also had some Tulsi tea and some lemon water.

Right now, I'm at work and I feel tired still, but that persistent headache isn't there. I also feel slightly more energetic than I have in the past two days.

I didn't feel hungry for the first half of the day, so that's an improvement. However, my already low blood pressure has dropped significantly. This is worrisome. I also am still worried about a lack of protein.

I notice that is generally toward the end of the day that I start feeling really doubtful. This usually coincides with how shitty I feel by the end of the day. These past few days, I've almost felt like I have the flu...that really worn down, kind of achy feeling. So, I don't know. I really really REALLY hate the idea of giving up on something, especially something I stand to gain from (or lose, hardy har har). But I do need to consider overall health. And, I suppose, happiness. Richie is miserable with this cleanse because he notices how tired I am and he doesn't like that we can't eat meals together (because he's not going to do a cleanse). I need to think about it some more.